So.

First week of school eh.
I don't think it was that bad for anyone? I'm in a class with 31.
But I guess that doesn't really matter.

I just got the greatest compliment, and it got me thinking. Sawke told me she liked me because I "don't focuse on one thing I spread around and like some but not all."
That gave me that gooey feeling inside me. A real compliment, one that I always wanted to hear, one that I always people found out about me, one I wouldn't have to tell them.
But then, my biggest mistake in the girl race told me that if I where less of a nerd (Meaning I needed to be off NG for a while) she'd probably be with me.

But, I may talk alot about NG, and act a bit nerdy, but for the rest, I'm not that much of a geek.
Why would she say such a thing? Is that really that much of a deal, and, am Ireally that deep in NG?

I don't get it.
I'm in the same class as her this year, the class will get split up ni October though.
Meh, if she didn't had a boyfriend....I'd be so happy right now.
My world would be perfect I think.
But that whole thing, oh boy. Never felt worse then today, because she keeps asking for my attention, but I don't want to be around her that much, I want to be seperated, and not think about her.
The whole summer vacation was without her, I was so happy I couldn't believe it.
Now school starts, and the whole thing starts over again.

I feel so shit.

And with that it's impossible for me to find a girl, because when I get close, she gets quite possesive [I think, this could be pure imaginable], and asks for more attention.
Yet, she doesn't want to be with me.
And I keep thinking that one day she'll say she "wants me back" , and what Iwould do.
But frankly, this is and will stay fiction. She only wants me for the attention. And for my good hart.
Fuck her, she's a bitch. She's a big fat stupid slut, who can't controll her hormones.
I don't hneed her, fuck her, if she complains, then she'll complain.
Find another slave. I'm not here for you anymore.

I bet I can find some guts depe inside me, and actually try with one of the new pretty girls in my class.

Yes, I'll do that. Tomorrow I'll say "Sorry, no" And just turn around!

[Also, sorry, I don't replied, commented back etc, but I've been really distracted, and my mind is at zero]