Ever felt alone?

Ever felt like everyone who loves you, just gave up on you? Just like that?
Ever had so many people around you, and then realise, it's all just fake?

Society these days is nothing more then a big, fat, shallow lie.
It's all just money, social status and appearance. Sure some say they're deeply in love with other people, or that they don't care about money etc, and that they really want their loved ones to be happy.
But in the long run, it's all ust a lie.
A big, unconscious, lie.

Our instincts haven't changed, we're all the same primitive apes as thousands of years ago.
Ever heard of the saying "You can take the lion out of the jungle, but you can't take the jungle out of the lion" ?
Well, same with human kind. Almost an eternity of evolution [in the running], and still the same egotistic, mass murdering beasts.

So, keeping all that in mind. What does that say about us?
That it doesn't mather how badly you think you care about someone, the day you'll have a dilemma, you'll always pick out the decision which will fill your needs.
The egocentric dicision. Even though it could ruin lives, or take lives.

Yes I'm quite extremistic, but think about it. The worst case you have. Your deeply beloved Mr. President.
The man, George W. Bush himself.
I don't know much about his onvolvings in the army, but I do know his appearance in the interviews, his last words on the war, wherever it is, HIS mentality.
Makes me believe he's in it because of daddy, and daddy wants money. So does sonny boy.
Where is all teh moenyz one might ask? Ah, I know. THEM MUSLIMS! They have al lthe money don't they? Lets shoot them, kill some muslims and ruin their lives [notice my reference] to get to their oil.

This is all just biased talk, but I do believe he isn't mister perfect.

My whole point is, trust no one.
Trust nothing.
Trust nobody.
Because it's all a lie.

I've been fucked over a couple of times, and this time, I'm through with it.
I don't want to get rejected anymore. Don't want a failed friendship, girlfriend, nothing.
I'm fed up with it.
If you want to be with me, fine, but first show me who you are. I know this is hypocrit because I myself am one of the biggest liars in the animal kingdom, but that doesn't mean anyone else has to.

Oh well.My ego has rised like hell this summer vacation, and it still is at it's highest peak, but it's so fragile.
Everytime things happen that normally would give it a little flesh wound just knocks me off my statue.
It's a pain, this is why Inever really cared about my appearences. You can't go any lower then low.

This does cause depression and suicidal ideas. Oh, you take the good with the bad?
I don't know.
All I know is that I hate responsibilty, and would like to leave my adulthood as far as possible.
Although, being mature etc does sound appealing.